top of page
  • Writer's pictureNate Methot

Searching for Meaningful Writing

There’s nothing like writing about writing. It might be the purest sign of boredom. It’s a form of self-reflection, where I go when I’m lost.


I’ve written some stories from my childhood, and have a long list of topics for more, but they always fall a bit flat in my mind. They just never seem as unique and meaningful as those involving my life with ALS.


Because they’re not. With few exceptions, they lack the emotional depth that brings power to my work. It’d be unreasonable to expect stories about the neighborhood kids building tree forts or playing whiffle ball to have deeper meaning beyond subjective nostalgia, but for me, without that “oh, that really made me think” factor, it’s just not that satisfying.


I’ve recently discovered the same standards for my reading. I always want to learn something, but I think it’s more than that. I want the things that I read to make a meaningful imprint on my brain.


Maybe I should write them anyway, if only as a way to preserve aspects of myself. I’ve explained this feeling to friends, and they’ve come to the same conclusion: Not everything has to be so heavy. It might even be a nice break (for both writer and reader) to deal in something entirely different, light and easy to read.


This dilemma is a fitting microcosm of my worldview. It’s so very hard for me to care about the things I don’t see, in the greater scheme, as important. I guess it’s ALS―and hopelessness, and depression. But I’m sure it’s a reasonable and logical response.

61 views2 comments

Recent Posts

See All

Robin Williams Says F*ck ALS

I recently read In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts: Close Encounters with Addiction. (It was endlessly interesting and masterfully written.) Near the end, almost as an afterthought, the author introduces a

Avoidant by Default

While buying a few groceries—in my behemoth powerchair, with my mom—I crossed paths with a woman I hung out with in college. I’m not sure if she recognized me; I’m not sure I wanted her to. I didn’t t

Trying and Failing

I've been on dating apps for almost three years, and every now and then I post hopeful episodes, but overall, it's been really fucking hard. My ongoing mantra is to keep trying, but there’s only so mu

2 Comments


tauwarte
Feb 17, 2023

Yes totally hear you. I will never be able to write fiction, i cant write what i don't feel acutely, it seems to be a skill set for someone else's brain. As my old ass blog shows, whatever is the hot topic in my brain is what I write about, usually just to help myself process. Does it feel like that to you, a form of processing? For many reasons verbal communication either doesn't come easy or is too fleeting to work, but reading and mulling over written words feels like more of a deliberate choice. Maybe why some people find calm in just 'writing it down' if only for a moment.

Like
Nate Methot
Nate Methot
Feb 25, 2023
Replying to

It's certainly easier to write what's at the forefront of your brain at the time. It's definitely a valuable and effective form of processing. If you're actually interested in conveying your thoughts as accurately as possible, you have to know what they are. It forces you to slow down in a way that most people probably don't. However, just because something isn't on my mind all the time, doesn't mean I can't or shouldn't write about and explore it. I can't always take the easy way out!

Like
bottom of page